Anxiety attacks are nothing new to me, but it has been a while since I’ve felt one. For me, an anxiety attack is just one step before a panic attack. It’s a fragile state that can easily knock you over the edge in a second.
What does it feel like? Well, for me at least, I feel like I’m struggling to breathe, I feel light headed and dizzy, my heart starts beating faster, I want to run out of the room and hide my face. It’s not a pleasant feeling.
Recently I had an anxiety attack in my class and it was the first time in a few months I had felt that happen. The reason behind it was a sensitive topic we were covering in class: stress and the heart.
Back tracking to my freshman year of college my dad had to undergo open heart surgery (he turned out fine and is now happy and healthy). At the time however, that was an extremely emotional and difficult time for me and my family. Heart disease runs in our family so not only was I worried for my dad, but I learned I needed to take better care of myself so this wouldn’t happen to me in the future.
Fast forwarding back to present day, my medications I take now make me eat a lot and I’ve recently gained more weight than I would prefer. I have been worrying about my health as well, that I’m setting myself up for failure in the future and will have difficulties with my heart.
My class was covering these topics and this is where the anxiety attack comes in. Remembering everything that happened during freshman year and everything that could happen to me just set me off.
I did some breathing exercises to try and calm down before I had a full blown panic attack which did help. Now I’m on edge that I’ll be in that state again and that my medication isn’t doing it’s job.
If you care to share, what are some things that help you when you’re in this state? I’d love to find a way to prevent this before it gets worse.